HOLYCALORIES!!!!

Check out this article from MSN...it rates the 20 worst foods in US restaurants. Do you know how many calories are in an awesome blossom????

http://health.msn.com/nutrition/articlepage.aspx?cp-documentid=100182334&page=1

I am SHOCKED at how many calories are in some of these items.

Work in progress

So last post I was discouraged. After the holiday I gained another 2 pounds...but our meeting leader handed each of us a tiny little eraser. She told us the eraser represented our erasing past mistakes or disappointments. Mine is a little orange fish. I decided to keep it in the change section of my wallet so I could see it and remember the past is in the past and there is nothing I can do about it. I lost .6 this week and I am happy. I was no where close to perfect but I tried. I wrote down what I ate even when I was ashamed I ate it.
I am a work in progress...and that is just fine with me.

On a side note...how sad is this whole Britney thing. My heart breaks for those boys! I hope she gets some help.

Hard...Hard...Hard

This week has been VERY hard. I was not able to weigh in a week ago due to some confusion between locations of my WW meetings. I weighed in the next week and had gained .8. I almost cried. I mean really, not an entire pound but I felt like a failure. Strange that I have tied so much to a number. I am anxious thinking about weighing, I obsess over what I eat the day before. Not just for calories but for the actual weight of the food. I am beginning to question the reason I am doing this. Do I find my worth in a number? Does my success or failure as a person equate to a number on a scale?
I took this week off, no counting...thinking it would clear my head. Instead I feel like a rebel. I am eating fudge and cake. Getting DQ treats.
I need balance.
I need balance.
I need balance.
This week I am going to try again. Try to follow the program and not let the number be my worth. I would apreciate any prayers...I believe God cares about this stuff, so if you have a minute I could use the support.

WOO WOO!!!

I lost another 2.2 this week! I am so happy...my total is 8.6 and I am so happy! I was a little worried that I had not done enough this week. I went to the gym 3x and sometimes that can cause me to retain water. Now I am more than half way to my christmas goal of 15.

I have been trying some new tricks with my eating. I started doing puree's of vegetables and adding them to our meals. I want to get more veggies and I get annoyed trying to eat an entire plate of broccoli. I put Acorn squash puree into a chicken pot pie last night. You would never know the difference. I am going to make a meatloaf that takes Carrot puree. I know most of the recipe's are meant for kids but I think we can all use a few more veggies. On another note...I used our food processor to do all this. First time since we got married. It made the whole process so much easier. I am trying to think of more things I can slice or blend or shred.

I am keeping on the same track...hopefully all the beer I will need for civil war will not cause too much trouble. Thanks for the support

Thankful...and still lost.

I am so happy to report I had a beautiful Thanksgiving and I still lost 2 pounds!!! The ladies at the meeting were so happy and surprised. I showed up at exactly 7am...and told them I had tried to be good. Only ate half my roll and one kind of pie. They called me a "stinker"...lol. I guess they were not expecting a loss...or for anyone to show up. I was thrilled! I had made an effort to enjoy the holiday and not make it about eating food. Hard, but not impossible. I thought about the flavors and textures and sights. I thought about how I could have some of all the things I wanted...but not too much. I had some of each thing...but no seconds. One piece of pie with non fat whip cream. I was happy, satisfied and not stuffed. Not ill from all the excess. Proud!

I am hoping to be down 9 more pounds by Christmas...I will keep on posting and I hope someone will be inspired to join me. It is not hard...it just takes beleiving you can succeed. If I can, you can!

I am a Weight Watcher

That is right...I am back at Weight Watchers. I stepped on the scale 11 months after my wedding and I weighed more that I have weighed in 5 years. More than I weighed when I started WW the first time. I was so mad at myself. It was hard to lose those 40 pounds the first time...now I have to lose 42. I have tried to find that happy place where my weight/size do not corrolate with my self worth. I am still searching for that place. I have a spare closet of clothes with a smaller size on them, I want to wear them again. I have a main closet full of clothes in a size I never thought I would wear again. I have never had a behind...when i saw this pic I was surprised and not in a good way.

WW works...I have tried other diets in the last few years and they last about a month and I gained all the weight back plus a little. In my first weigh in I lost a grand total of .4...yes, not even a half. I cried. I know it seems silly but I was disapointed. I reminded myself that I gained the weight over years, I would not lose it in a week. The second weigh in I lost 3.8 for a total of 4.2.

I feel so proud of myself and I feel motivated. Thanksgiving is the day before I weigh again and I am determined to be proud of myself on friday. That may mean I have half a piece of pie, only one roll and lots of salad. I will keep you posted on my progress...all the ups and downs. If anyone wants to join the fight I would love the company!

Unemployed

I am officially unemployed...and happy! I quit my job a week ago and have spent most of the last week cleaning the house...organizing closets...having lunch with friends...hanging with my neice and nephew...and all together going nutty! I have learned that I need to be busy. I have a list of all the things I want to do before I start another job and I am having trouble doing them. I want to be out and about with people. I have trouble being home alone. I thought I could do this until the first of the year but I think I will barely make it to the end of the month! I am going to do my best to get my projects done before Dec 1...hopefully!